me being chinese!!! lol

so today i just remember the BEST like ancientish chinese drama i watched!!! it sooo awesome!!! and the girl is sooo pretty!! >.< no homo!!! lol
i watched like when i was in 6th grade!!!
i might watch again soon when i have time!! lol
but i probably wont have anytime!!!
tee hee!!
here is summary of it if u are interested!!! oh yeah it called chinese paladin!! lol
http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Chinese_Paladin
THE ENDING WAS SOOO SAD!! i cried soo much.... Oh yeah and the summary they give for that drama is not really good... it sound kinda lame but the actually drama is sooo awesome!!
here i found another one better summary!!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_Paladin_%28TV_series%29
and the one im talking bout is the FIRST season which is the BEST!! lol

and here is one of my fave song from the drama!!!

I feel awkward....

This week made me feel really awkward...
I don't no y...
And I feel like it is gonna continue this way... Even though I hope it doesn't...
Oh well I'm not gonna think too much...
I have too much to do this year for that!!!
I'm gonna focus more on my schoolwork and yeah...
I need to jia you...
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I think I'm a horrible person....
I don't no y.. LOL XP
This is sooo emo!!!

P.S nothing happen.... This is just my mood right now

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I am determined to do something starting august 10th and hopefully I mean u WILL see a difference buy august 17th...

Guys r soooo annoying!!

Guys r annoying!!!
Always making fun of ppl....
I hate them
They should die...
Even though the girls tried hard to mix in with the guys instead seprating between guys and girls...
The guys just ignore us and whispearing behind our back and laughing.. Maybe u guys aren't talking bout us but it make us feel uncomfortAble like u guys r talking bout us...
Wtvr...
Just go die!!!

Another LONNNNNGGG post!!

YAYYYYYYYYYYY!!! i had sooo much fun yesterday!!! >.<
i did soooooo much stuff in one day! and got home super tired and wanna just lay on my bed and sleep... but im a clean person so i take a shower first!! tee hee!

anyways so my day goes by like this...
first casey's mommy took me and mitchelle to registration... (thanks casey's mommy) and then my brother took us to dmill and we hang around there for a while and eat and meet up with the guys!!

then we went to karokeeeeee! me and mitchelle went on thao's car and while she was driving we saw a bunch of "HOTTIES" they were azn guys with cool hair so thao decided to stalk them so she made a U turn and me and mitchelle scream at the guys!!! lol we were soo stupid!!!
finally we got to karokeeeeeeeee we saw the "hotties" again at the karokeeeee and they turn ugly!! T-T LOL

so we had fun KALAOKAAAYYYING and a little while some ppl had to leave so we split up... me casey and mitchelle followed jennifer and holy.. and since we have nothing better to do we decided to go back to karokeeee again!! lol sooo azn!!!
after that mitchelle and casey wannted to go to kevin's house but they wasnt home so we took casey home and me and mitchelle went to my house.....

then my brother's friend picked us up!! he is sooo GAY and funny!! lol
so we were suppose to go to ice skating but he was late and we kinda got lost so we decided just to go to SUNOOOOOO!!! and since the guy and my bro know this girl that works there!! we were like the VIP!!! lol we didnt have to wait in line!!! and me and mitchelle heard that if we helped them out we can get a free suno shirt!! so me and mitchelle help them out ALOT!! lol
we shaved ice for SUNO
we tell ppl to fill out stuff
I make tea for ppl with this hot guy...
and we EAT suno!! LOL
oh yeah and we draw out the winners for free suno shirt and gift card!! and they didnt have speakers so we have to YELL the name like crazy and no body came things up so we decided to just throw out the shirt and the gift card! LOL
i swear we work more then some of the workers!! lol
we were there till the whole thing ended!!!
n after it ended the boss give us our shirts!!! (he is soooooooo nice >.<)
and i ask yoyo (one of the workers) if i can make a SUNO!! and she let me.... and i put EVERYTHING IN IT!! lol andd i ask if anyone wants it and if they do they can do rock paper sisscors but nobody did... so i waas just like Alex (yoyo's 11 year old brother that me and mitchelle was messing with and teasing) do u want it and he took it!! and i made him eat the wholle thing!! (tee hee) and he say it taste goood!!! lol!! he is sooo cute!! lol
I HAVE SOOOO MUCH FUN THERE!!

then we went to KALAOKAAAAAAAAAAYING AGAIN!!! and at the same place AGAIN! and we stay there till 3ish!!!
sooo yeah i got home super tired!!
lol

P.S: I MIGHT BE ON SUNO'S FACEBOOK!! MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

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CAUTION: THIS IS GONNA BE A LONNNNNNNNNNGGG BLOG!!! EVEN THE TITLE IS LONNNNNNNNNNNNNG!!!

so on Tuesday i hanged out with my azn buddies!!!
so vikki told me that she was going to be at my house like at 9ish but she called me EXACTLY at 9 n i was still sleeping!! T-T i went to sleeep like at 3ish the night before... so when vikki got to my house we did jigsaw puzzle cz my bro made me do it for him n cz we had to be quiet cz ppl is sleeping!!.......
after that we ate SHIN!! it was sooo YUMMMY!!! lol

then vikki CUT MEHHHH!! she said she only need 30min but it took bout like an hour or more!! lol... so anyways casey called me at 12ish n told us that she is gonna be at my house at 1 so me and vikki started running around n rushing!! then casey called again n said that she is have some diffculties at the bank so she came like 20min later which is fine with us cz when had enough time!...

so then we went to discover mills!!! n we went shopping n stuff!!! but we didnt really buy anything lol except for me!!!! i brought a bag and a monokuro boo cusion thingie!! TEE HEE!

then we went to thai diner to eat! it sooo funny how azn we are!!! since we are supper hungry whenever a new plate come we all ate really fast! n before we knew everything is gone except for the LAST piece n we all put our fork down n stop eating n wait for someone to eat the LAST piece.... lol usually we force someone tooo!! LOL TEE HEE!

OMG!!! so after we are done at the mall i called my dad to pick us up! but my dad didnt no where dmill is.. so i have to tell him where to go...
so vikki, casey, and i decide to go out more so my dad can see us.... while we are walking i saw my dad n i was like DAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDYYY n didnt see me n keep driving!! so i ran after the car n waving my hand!!! LIKE IN DA DRAMAS!!! lol!!! then casey yell y dont u call ur dad!! n i was like ohhh yea!!! so i called him n he turn around!!! LOL but anyways!! i was soo excited cz it made me feel like im in a drama!!!... now this make me wonder y dont the ppl in da drama call the person too instead of running after the car or bus!!!
tee hee!

HERE ARE SOME PIC OF THE HANGOUT DAY!!

Vikki eating SHIN!!!


SUPERWOMAN!??


before i got CUT

after i CUT!

GROUP PICS!






VIKKI AND CASEY!








VIKKI AND ME!!! (DONT ASK ME WAT WE ARE DOING CZ I DONT EVEN NOOO!!)


VIKKI AND HER SMEXXIII SELF!!



MOMMMMYY!



MEH WITH SHORT HAIR!?

Hi!!! ^- ^ v

I no im weird but I'm kinda addicted to typing on my iPhone....!!! It ok da fun... LOL

Soo I was very bored... I say "bored" soo much I bet it is the most used word on my blog!! LOL I need to look for a new word to replace "bored"... Anyways so yeah I was BORED so I decided to read my older blogs... N I realized how much typos I have...Tee hee... Some of my blog are funny n remind me of the good old days... N some of them make me feel weird... Cz I can't believe I type some of the stuff... ~_~

I have a dream....
Haha I had a super weird dream last night!!! Me n Vikki was in this store n it had a wholeeee bunch of monokuro boo stuff!! N we went crazy n start buying almost e erything running around the store... Then when we was vetti g ready to pay for de stuff we realize we have no monayyyy... So we started to say stupid stuff to de cashier.. We were like u are soooo sexaaaay mannnn.. N alll that crap n thenthe cashier start running after us... N yea... It was kinda stupid!!!

I can't wait till Vikki cut hair on Tuesday!!!
Last night I look on de mirror n my hair was all jacked up... The layers are super outgrown n my bangs look soo stupid!! That y I never wear my band down anymore!!! I've decided that I'm gonna take a before n after pic of my hair!!! So yeah.... I regreted that I didn't do that last time Vikki cut my hair!!! Tee hee!! I can't wait!!!

*AZN MOMENT*
So I was I da. At with my mom n we were going to h-mart n it was like 95 degree outside n I ask my mom to turn on de a/c n she was y? It only a short distance!! Waste of gas!! So I didn't want to say anything cz I didn't wanna argued with her.. So when we were bout to get there.. There was a LONNNG traffic n my mom still didn't turn on. The a/c she a like we are almost there..... N I was just like .... TOT.. o

I haven't blog for a LONG timmmme!!!

So yeah.... I haven't bloged for a lonng time!!! But that is cz there is nothing new or interesting in my life rite now... N also I'm too laziii to tooooooo!!! Tee Hee!!!

... I can't wait till I get to hang out with my friends!! I miss them n the fun craziii times we had together!! Lol n believe it or not I can't wait till school starts... Because it is more interesting then now.. I actually like school I just don't like the SCHOOLwORK!!! LOL..

So my bro went to new york for four days n now I'm more bored then usually... Cz I can't mess with him anymore so now I spend my whole day working n doing my summer reading!! I'm such a good girl!! Tee hee!!!

Yeah... I'm pretty disappointed that I can't go to chi a this year but I super appreciate my mom n dad calling ppl n trying to found out if anyone cAn take me to china!! I feel super touched!! But I. NO I can go to chi a next xlsummer cz my mom already got someone to take me!!! Yay!!

*AZN MOMENT*
MY BRO: I'm gonna go to New York... N buy that thing for u k?
ME: what thing?!
MY BRO: that pig thingie u like!!
ME: oooooo monokuro boo?!? Really??! YAY!!
MY BRO: wait.. How u say it?!
ME: Monokuro boo!!
MY BRO: wat?!? Monokurakura koo!?
ME:=_=...... T-T ...
P.S I doubt my bro would buy me anything....
P.S.S I'm typed this on my iPhone so there is probably a lot of typos....
TEE HEE o(> .<)o

im sooo laziiii!

haha! im super lazy... everyday i think about writing this and that on my blog but when i get home... i get lazy and never write it!! lol!

well a coupon days ago my mom n i went to H-Mart n i saw this little boy n he was SUPER KAWAIIII he is gonna be a hot guy when he grew up!! lol well anyways i saw his little brother on the cart thingie... he was kinda sleeping and he keep swinging back and forth.... first his head was in de middle then slowly he falls to the left... then his head goes back to the middle and the falls to the rite... IT WAS SOOO FUNNY!! i wanted to take a video... but i didnt havve me camera!! T-T

last night when i got home.. i walked in my room and got soo fustrated... i was like i will clean my room.... n it was like 2 when i start cleaning then i finished like at 4ish.... soo tired!! T-T


*AZN MOMENT*
okay.. yesterday my bro told me he is gonna take a day off on Tuesday... which is MY day off.. n this is how the conversation goes...
Me: WHYYY~~~~~ IM TIRED!!!
MY BRO: cz i got CHOPPING with my friends!
ME:CHOPPING WAT!!! u mean SHOPPING!?
MY BRO: no im mean CAPING?!
ME: WAT DAAAAA~~
MY BRO: u no when u go to the mountain n stuff...
ME: OHHHH u mean CAMPING!?
MY BRO: yeahhhh! CAMPING! so that wat it call...

okay on thursday... i happen to have a half day off.. n vikki called me n ask me if she can come over n help her with math n this is how the conversation goes...
VIKKI:i want a FILAS
ME: WAT!! u want a FETUS!!??? >.<
VIKKI: nooooooooooooo FILAS not FETUS!!!
ME: oh. yeah. YOU BETTA NOT WANTAH NO FETUS!! OR I BETAH YOU IN DAAAA BOOTAAYYY!!!

LONG TIME NO POST!!!

so..... I havent updated for a while... That not cz i was busy or anything but it was cz my life IS THE SAMETHINK EVERYDAY!!!!! working, WORKING, AND MORE WORKAAAAAAAAY!!! well a coupon days ago and yesterday i was working in athens again (my "brother's" store) and their relative came over and i no them tooo!!! and there was this 5 year old little girl and her 9 month little brother!!! THEY ARE SOOO ADORABLE!!! the little girl always come up to me and want me to hug her and hold her and sit on my lap!! she was like CLINGING on to me!!! THEY ARE SOOO CUTEE!! AHHHHHH!!
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so.....
i got home last night n i was super sick!! boo hoo! i went to sleep super early tooo!! n this morning my mom keep waking me up to go to work but i couldnt.... but i still did...... but i wanna stay home...
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so i worked for a while.... then me and my bro went to anytime fitness to sign up for a membership thingie... (he wanted me to go cz he said it boring if he go alone).... so yeah...
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then me and my mommy went to victoria secret!!! they have stuff on sale!!! me and my mom spend like $200!!! lol!!! she was like try this one ... and this one.. and this one... n i was just like....okayy......

then i just stay home the rest of da day... vikki came over to ask me to help her with math like at 8ish and left at 10ish.... YAY!! I MISSS HER SOO MUCHHHHH!!!!
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after that me and my bro went to anytime fitness at like 11ish and came back at 2ish... it was kinda fun!! n it was emptyish so we have da whole place for ourselve!! yay!!!

im tired.

im been working nonstop for the pass week or two... im super tired... i wanna get some rest... not only am i tired.. im also tired of my mom yelling at me for every little mistake i did... it reallly annoying... i really envy those of u who have nothing to do and just stay home.. i wanna stay for one day and sleep for 24hrs....

i really dont understand y my mom wont let me go to china alone with my cousin... it not like anything gonna happen beside im 15 already and im 17 in my chinese age... so because i cant go alone i have to go with this shortie and he is going at the end of july therefore i cant go..unless i can find some one else that can take me......

im soo use to being disappointed from my mom that i dont even care anymore.... but i still hope i can go...

CHINA BABAAAAAAAAAYYYY!!!

Muwahahahahahaha!!!! i mite go to CHINA!! WOO HOOO!! today my dad was talking to my mom talking bout how i need to go to china and get my nose check and that i need to go to see grandpa!!! and my dad said since i have green card i should goooo! and my mom was like yeah (convinced by my dad and my uncle) and she called one of our relative that is going and asked him if he could take me too! and he said yeah but the ticket mite be expensive! and i just the ticket online today and it was CHEAPPPP! it only 885 if i book koreanair... and it has only one stop!!! WOOOO HOOO!

CHINA HERE I COME!!....


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That is if i go...

i hate men.

So i was just had a loonnnng shower...thinking about crap! i just wanna write all that crap down rite now... okay.. here we goo!

i really hate ppl with a big mouth seriously shut the F#&$up.. and also ppl who go into other ppl businnes like ooooo she did this and she did that.... OMG!! serioulsy get a life!!!! also i really dislike ppl who put alot of effort in just to make fun of someone and trying to get make them embrass... for example... this "unknown" caller (i no who u are) call me like 5 time just to make fun of me... but i didnt pick uup cz i left my phone at the house.. but then that "unknown" caller called again just to make fun of me again.. seriously once again get a life.. i bet there are more important things out there... wtvr i bet this blog make no sense wat so ever... but this is how i feel rite now.... also i really dislike ppl who think ppl will forgive him or her no matter wat... and i dislike ppl who think they no everything....

when i dislike somebody... slowly and slowly everything bout that person i will dislike... almost... lol!


...... wtvr i go watch my drama...

Wooo Hooo!! im finally at home!!!

the being back feel sooo goood!!! my room is like heaven compare to where i was.... it not because it was crappy or anything.. i dont care that much but it just that "my brother" smokes in the house and it smells horrible and i have to sleep under the cover all the time!.... i was back last night cz my mom need me on fridaay... so yeah.... I MADE SOME MONEYYY!! YEA!!~~ lol!

hahaha! my brother told me a story of his azn guy friend who got in a care accident.... my brother was like when the place came the guy was like " HIS CAAARR KISSS MY BUTTT!! AND I GO BOOM BOOMM! lol! i was cracking upp! lol!

i wish........

middle of nowhere.......T-T

ok my mom agree to one of my friends that i would work at her at her restuarant..... but i dont really wanna!! T0T today was suppose to be my off dayyyy!!!! wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! and her restuarant is in athen i work there before but it was like for one day... but i have to stay here like for at least a week....T-T and serioysly it is in the middle of nowhere my phone didnt have signall ALLLLLLLL DAYYYYY! i was sooooooooooooooo glad that i have internet!!! YAYYYYYY!........... oh yeahhhhhhh... i havent seen a black person today..... at the resturant... it was ALLL WHITE!!!!!!!! O_o

how life?

.... my summer is soooooooooo boring!! i think i said that many time already!! lol... iman is leaving tommorrow!! I WILL MISSS UUUU!!! i went shopping with her on thursday! it was really funnnnn! i meet this girl... i forgot her name again! we went to thailand diner or something like that! i was awesome! i love iman's duck!! lol.. i webcammmm with vikki that night it was funn too we did alot of stupid stuff! till lik 2 something! and then with jason but all he did was tallking on the fone... T-T
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trang called me today and i missed her call then i call her back when i was in my brother's car... and trang was just talking... and my brother was like YOU TALK TOO MUCH MAN! TO TRANG!! lol!

today my brother said "u give me remember!" and i was like huh!! lol he meant "u better remember" he is translating from chinese which is
ni gei wo ji de!
u give me remember!
lol!

just another day.....

so im just gonna talk bout random thingies that happen to me today....

today my mom saw a can of pringles.. and she was like OMG! SOO UNHEALTHY!! u are gonna sha hou if u eat that.... the she opened it and ate it... i was hahaha! u said it was unhealthly but u are still eating it... and then she was like if i dont eat it then u or ur bro is gonna eat it... it not goood.. im sacraficing myself.... and i was just like wow...

haha!!! my bro was sleeping today and then i painted his nail black with a sharpie... then afterwards he was like ARE U SERIOUS! U MADE MY NAILS LOOK LIKE THIS!! lol

my mom is soooo weird!! she call me fat everyday!!! and sometimes when i dont feel like eating a meal she will keep bugging me bout it.. she is like wat do u wanna eat! go eat somethihng! are u hungry like every five min!!

I MISS VIKKI, CASEY, TRANG AND IMAN (ONLY NONASIAN HERE) WAHHH!!! T-T

i have a headache today and my tummy hurts!!!! boo hooo!

MAY 24 2009

I decide to update my blog more often... because it the summer and i have nothing else better to do and i wanna keep my friends updated with my life since i dont really see them... :(

I am soo bored these day!!! lol! i been day dreaming in the restuarant all day! lol! i realize that i think bout the most randomese stuff... yesterday my bro told me that he was gonna buy a webcam and i told him to buy a cheap one cz it would be blurry and i told him that he would look better in a blurry one! lol! so yeah he bought it.. i think it cost $40.... $-$......

last night i style my bro's hair before he go to karoke (i no soo AZN >.<) and it looks super awesomely kool!! lol! i feel so proud myself! lol

after he left i seek into his room.. and took his webcam... and start messing with it!! tee hee!!!

*here is the product*
http://img43.imageshack.us/my.php?image=picture005j.gif


i really like the quality! lol!

...during all my boredom... i was thinking bout the randomese thingies!! lol... like wat to say when ppl ask me y did the chicken cross the street!....i would say because im on the other side!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!....

this stupid customer today.. ask me " u serve chinese food here rite".... I Was just like .... looking at him if he was stupid... i mean wat do u expect a CHINESE resturant to serve? tacos!? lol!

I will miss you guys!!!!

VIKKI- u are a super duper awesome friend!!!we had alot of fun, crazy and stuppid times together!... everyday u make my day funnier and more exciting....and hanging out with you is the funniest of all!!!.... your smile and laugh just wanna my laugh tooo!! (no homo) Most ppl think that u are just a carefree, happy person who cant get serious... but your not like that... u can be serious and u also have mant problems in your life. i think u put a happy and careful act in front of others to hide ur true feeling sometimes like me... I hope next year u would open up to me more letting out friendship grew stronger and stronger.....I would like you to tell me ur problems... and many others!!!... and hopefully i would do the same to you... LET SCREAM TOGETHER AGAIN NEXT YEAR LIKE WE DID THIS YEAR!!!

CASEY- Casey u are my most adorable mommi!!!!!!! i really appreciate you as a friend... you are always thinking bout other.... like the time u gave me the lotion thingie.. and the time u made the gigantic study guide for me!!!!! you take time to help out ur friends when you can! u really helped me alot this year... and i hope i can help u tooo..... i really admire how you stick with your own opinion n not the other affect... and how you dont act or say things ruthlessly!!! you are a true mommii!!! and i LOVE going to shopping with you!!! even in grocery stores!!! you are cute when u giggle when u look at me!! SUPER DUPER KAWAIIII! >.< NO HOMO!

TRANG- My sexiiii babayyyy!!! we only meet this year... but our friend grew day by day... i had many happy memories with you... especially in chorus!! with ur stupid dirty blonde self!! lol!! jk jk.. I WUV YOU!!! u are a friend that would do anything to stand up for ur other friend if they are treated unfair!... and im glad im a friend that you come to when there is a problem in ur life... and i hope it will stay that way... i will be on your side as long as you want me tooo!!! sometimes your actions annoys me... but i will still LOVE YOU BABE!!! :P!tee hee!

IMAN- MY KOOLEST BOSIAN MOMMYYYY! (and my only one...tee heee)!!!!!! This u had helped me alot... giving me advice on my problems, making me laugh, and much more!! but it seems like you are the one that helps me but i didnt help u much!... i hope next year i would help u with your problems too...Even though we dont hang out together alot like my other friends.. we are still close and have the connection between each other that i dont have with my friends that i hang out alot... I really wanna get to no u better!!! EVERYWAY!! ( if u no wat i mean).... lol jk jk! IF DADDY (KIET) EVERY BULLY UUU TELL ME!!!

NANNY- I dont no u that well... and u dont no me that well either.. but u are always helping me.... im sorry for bothering u soo much this year... n asking you to drive me to places... you are soo kind and caring just like a nanny!!! you gave good advices just like confucious! lol! jk jk! I hope i will get to no u better next year... and get personal!!! >.< lol! U ARE SOOOOO AWESOME NANNY!

JENNIFER- I DONT NO UUUU!!! but i no that u are super violent! and you find plessure in pitching ppl's cheeks!!! n that we have common hates... lol! if u no wat i mean!

JASON- jason... i feel like out friendship is fading away... not that i want it to.... sometimes i wonder if u ever think of me as a friend....i sometimes feel like i was someone that was benefitical to u and when im not you just walk away from me... and find someone else tht is benefitical. I really feel unappreciated... i said that i will always be there for u but u dont let me be there for you... u said i hate you and u cant do anything bout it... but i dont hate you and u can do thing bout it, it just that you arent trying to do anything bout it... anyways i really enjoy the happy time we had together....do u even remember them jason? through all this i hope you learn somethings... I miss u Jason Austin Yeoh...

KIET- you always say stupid and me stuff bout me IN FRONT OF ME! lol... i no u are just joking but i couldnt help being violent on you... lol! sorry if i hate you too hard! lol!.... it kool to start first period with you because you and ur stupid self always find ways to make me smile or laugh! :D... Somethings i get annoyed by how u act too cocky bout things u no or ur jokes get tooo far ( like the 2nd time u pretend to be mad at me) but so far i could resist forgiving u! so keep it up! you act stupid and retarded but you are super mysterious at less to me u are...
and once again! SORRY FOR HITTING YOU SOOO MUCH!!! >_
SHIN- You have cool hair! lol.... you are a very mysterious person... u make me wonder what u are thinking and what kind of person u REALLY are...! oh yea! u are a pimp!! always with girls!! lol! hope i will get to no u better!... TEE HEE ^-^v

KEVIN- I dont no u that well i just no the u that u show other ppl... which is stupid and retarded! but funny!! you crack me up with ur stupidity! and the things u say is sooooooo lame tooo!!! lol! tee hee! WAT DAAAAAAAA DUCK SAUCE!! LOL!

The end of the begining....

A year has past already.......so much has happened this year....i meet many new precious friends and ppl this year and so much has happen between us... and our friendship build up each day... or fade away as the day goes by.... i really enjoy having fun and going through problems with you guys... i will probably not see u guys much over the summer...cz i gotta work...but i wanna say I WILL MISSS CHUUUU!!!! muwahhhhh!

Through all that has happened..... i wanna ask for feedbacks on wat do u guys think bout me... my postive and NEGATIVES...MOSTLY NEGATIVES.... cz i wanna improve and be a better friend and person!

want to go home...where the one i love lives and the one that needs me lives

feeling really stressed rite now... feeling like blogging... geting my hidden thoughts out of my head
i want to go back to china...
where my grandpa, the one who brought me up, the one who loved me for who i was, the one who sometimes seem like a kid to me, the one who had patience with me, and the one that treated me differently from everyone else,

is.... lying on the hospital bed slowly dying each day.....
here i am... worrying bout how my hair look, how stupid other people are, and having fun... my grandfather is living not knowing if there is a tommorrow..

i seriously wants to go back to china and see him!.... this is my last chance...when i left for the airplane 8 years ago... i didnt think that... that might be the last time i will see him...

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i hope he gets well!

EHHHHH! WAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!

For some reason recently i cant gooo to sleeep at allll!!! GRRRRR!!!! even today after.. only sleeping for like 6 hours total for 2 days... feeling super tired and trying to sleep but im still having hard time falling asleep!!! usually if i on the bed... im dead.... IDK WAT IS WRONG...blehhhh..............
kinda fustrating..

anyways casey show me this chinese photoshop thingie!! i had soo much fun with it!!! yay! tee hee!!!

here are some pics i edited...





my fave.. one before and after....

SPRING BREAK!!!

WOW! time passed by super fast! it already spring break!!! and next thing u no school is already over!!
this spring break was pretty kool!
on tuesday when i was bout to walked to nan house's to get jason's wallet.. i check my mail and my cell phone thingie arrived!! YAY!! LOL!
oh yeah when i was walking it was snowing tooo! i was like WTF! at first i thought it was flower but then it fell on my face and melt!........ after i got back casey and her mom came pick me up and then we picked jason up! and we went to casey's piano lesson and H-MART! i made jason ate A LOT of wasabi!! and yeah.... he almost died! lol! then we went shopping for trang again! i brought some monokuro phone chain.. i gave the white one to vikki and i kept the black one and now we are offically couples!! lol! i also got some pencils too! YAY CUTE PENCILS!! i was looking for a monokuro mouse pad but they dont have it! GRRRRR! Later i went to casey's house and spend the night with her!!! and we didnt sleep all night!
lol!! -if u no wat i mean-!

on wednesday is casey's party!!! we spent most of the morning fixing our hair! casey and vikki both tried to make my hair puffy but it just keep falling down! lol! and casey put makeup on me and vikki! and then i just all black and white and we made all the azn wear black and white to the party too! lol! then jason, vikki. casey and me made set up for the party... we made wonton and cupcakes with funny faces! lol!

the party was fun overalll! except for the part wherre i felll and slide down the mini hill! lol!!

last night i started watching 1 litre of tears recommended by iman and shin! it was soooooooooooooo sad!!! i was crying my eyes out! i tired not too but i cant help it!! i feel sooo sorry for the girl!!! wahhhhh! and this morning when i woke up . i looked at myself in the mirror. i almost scream!! my eyes were horrible it was all swollen and chinkayyy!!!! but luckly my chinkinesss went away after a few hours...!!! YAY!!

.......im gonna go watch it now............ see ya! lol!

p.s: IM SOO OBESSED WITH MONOKURO!!! NOW!!!! I WANNA MAKE MY WHOLE ROOM MONOKURO! AND BLACK AND WHITE! I just looked online and saw so really kool site with alot of monokuro stuff!
http://www.shopkawaii.com/SearchResults.asp
http://www.allthingsforsale.com/catalog/index.php?cPath=75_87
and of course ebay!!!
lol! i wanna get some of the stuff soo badly but i dont wanna pay for shipping! i wish i can go to ny this summer and go to chinatown and buy a whole bunch of monokuro stuff! lol!

random much!? ^-^V

it sooo hard keeping up with my blog! either i forget or i just dont feel like doing it lol!....

well recently i just got a new haircut!!! by the best hairstylist evaaaaaaaaaa!!! MY BABY VIKKI! YAY!.... ha ha...

i decide to buy a cell phone skin cz i keep dropping and breaking my cell phone! and yesterday i was on skinit.com and i found out that i can customize my skin!!! yay! here is the 3 i customized:


MONOKUDO!!! YAY!!!


MEEEE!!! yay!

MEEEE with blush by vikki!! YAY! jason and vikki said they like this one the best! so i use this one! YAY! Im gonna be like the first girl with a cell phone cover with her own pic! YAY!... i place the order already! it cost me like $20 T-T.....

i cant wait till i get it!

LONG TIME NO POST!

tee hee!
before when i was making this blog i was telling myself that i will keep up with it and write alot... but i've been slacking recently....well im just gonna write bout what happen last week and my FREINDS!!!

omg! the begining of last week was soooooooooooooo stressful! i stay up till 7 am doing ms.whitlows stuff on saturday...and allll day on sunday.... and my neck hurt sooo much cz it feels like my head is super heavy and my neck cant support it......
OOOOOOOO!! i had fun last week toooooooo!!! me and vikki went to hang out with the KFK on tuesday and we went to some random neighborhood ....me and vikki attempt to play tennis but she hit the tennis ball in my face!!! OWIEEE!! after our attempt to play tennis me and vikki just hang out and do stupid stuff together!! and then we went to a river and it was kool! cz it have miniwaterfalls and we walked in the river!! vikki got soooooo wettttt cz she got pushed!!! and i only got my leg wet cz i sliped T-T........... lol that day was fun... and i feel really relaxed the only bad thing bout it was xue was there...... T-T.....

last night i ask my parent bout the PARIS trip next summer and they said i can gooo!!
yay!!!
sooo happy!!!

today when i got home i saw my brother and i was talking to him and i was like where are u going and he say GIRLFRIEND MAN!! and i was like ohhh! and he was like do u wanna go and i was like NOOOOO... and then he say u sure and i say YEEA`~~~~~~ I mean y would i wanna go be a light bulb lol!!.... but it was kinda awkard cz i thought i saw two hickeys on my brother's neck.... kinda weird...

i cant wait till wednesday!!
cz vikki is gonna cut me stupid hair!!
my hair is sooo annoying!
kinda scare too... hope she dont mess up!

just blahing....

my past few post was more serious and express what i think.... ppl start thinking that there is something wrong with me..... i guess ppl just are use to that side of me...

anyways... on friday the strangest thing to me... well it not really that strange.. cz i should get use to it by now.. almost every single time i unexpectlly randomly wishes for something it comes true.. so on friday.. i had a quiz in biology class... and the quiz wasnt as easy as i thought it was and i was just randomly thinking in the the back of my head... i bet she will let us use out notes at the end of the class...it was totally random... i dont even no y i thought of that ...but at the end of the class she was like for the last 15 min of class u guys can use ur notes... and then i will like |||( O . O )~~~~~

but that not it!!!.... after that in math class.. we have a test... and there was caluaators.. in the front of the room... and someone in my class ask if we are gonna use it and my teacher said no.... so while taking the test i randomly unintentionally think in my head... i bet she is gonna let us use the caluator at the end of the classs to check out answers....... and then it happens. ||| ( O .O )

samething happen back in 7th grade... i was on the bus in the morning and then i was just thinking to myself... i wish we have field trips. *sigh*... and that day my teacher... told us bout our upcoming field trip....

SOOO WEIRD!!
AND FREAKY!!!

today whiile eating dinner... my bro just pop outta nowhere and was like hey when ur 18 im gonna take u to a nightclub..... then i was like who are u talking to... then he say u.... i was like wow that is kinda weird coming from a brother... cz usually they will be like against it and stuff.... and then my bro was like IF U GO TO NIGHTCLUB IM GONNA CHOP OFF UR LEG!! ... and the he started laughing... so stupid!!!

my family....

sometimes I hate it that my mom especially my mom no nothing about me...
dont no what kind of person i am...
what kind of person i want to be...
what do i like.....
and what i want....
but now that i think about it, it not my mom fault..... but it is mine...
i dont give her the chance to let her know me...
i dont tell her who i am...
what i like..
who i wanna be..
and i dont tell her what i want...
i cant just expect her to no everything about me... when i dont tell her anything...

out of my family i think my brother knows me to best...
he know me more than i give him credit for...
i guess it cz me communicate more..
but sometimes my brother is very mysterious to me...
like me he had a hidden part of him...
even though he is always joking around, being stupid, and foolish...
i no that is just the outside.
in a way my brother and i is very alike...

i feel really sorry and gateful for him...
because he is older... he have to do more work..
i have more freedomm...
i can do what i want ... at least most of what i want in my life but my brother cant....
he given up his dream..
for my unknown dream...

.... i think i need to be more appreciative especially toward my family... and think more of them then myself...

help....

a lot of time when my friend tell me about their problems... even though i really want to help and give advice most of the time i dont no wat to say or give out good advice like other ppl.... because most of the time i dont no wat to do either so all i can do is listen and say jia you... i hope that helps... but i dont think soo...

recently i did something really immature!.....i only listen to one side of the story and only listen about stuff other ppl say bout that person but i really didnt get to no that person.... and i did something really mean.... when that person did nothing to me..... i realize how stupid that is... even if ther person is like that i should at least get to know that person first and find out myself.....

oh yeah driver ed is SOOOOOO boring!!!!


SAY NO TO DRUGS!!
tee hee
^-^\/

BABIES!!!

babies are just popping up everywhere today.....

today in 3rd period my teacher... brought his 2 years old baby son to school today!!
he was sooo adorable and cute!! I loove babies!! they are soo innocent!

today my brother told me that his best buddy!.... who really really nice to me... he treats me like his sister... is having a baby today.... i dont no if the baby is out yet.. but i feel really happy for him!!! and i think his baby is gonna be soo cute! cz he gonna act like his dad... when my brother first told me that the first thing i picture in my head is the baby wearing baggy cloths that is too big for him and his dad wearing the same thing and they both standing next to each other.... my brother's friend is kinda the gangsta style...... oh yeah he said he is gonna name his baby 康康 in chinese and Nono in english!!! sooo funny!!. u willl only get it if ur chinese.....

i just saw baby picture of two guys.....
they both dont like nothing alike....
but stilll cute!!

babies are soo pitchable!!!!!
i love the innocent look of babies... they are not selfish like us... they make other happy and when they see someone happy they are happy!!! soo cute!!!


anyways wazup with me and babies today!

in a bloging mood....

hey hey hey!!!
OMG!!! i was watching

梁祝... butterfly lover....

TODAY!!! i was sooooooooo goood!!! I Cried soo much in the end....it was soooo sad...... booohoooo!!! i really really enjoy!!! might watch it again someday!!! Charlene choi is sooo cute!! as always!! .. wu zun was pretty kool... but i really prefer him in modern outfit then back then.... or maybe it the his hair style that keep ignoring me in the movie....

welll anyways while i was watching the thin gie... my dad interupted me and ask m e to go to Lowes with him.... i got kinda pissed.... cz i do

nt wanna goo!!!!....

sometimes i feel like i being little too me an to my dad.... he is never mean to me.....
while driving home sitting in the car i re a lize that i had never say "im sorry" to him before..... but i guess im not the type that willl say stuff like that.... i just show "im sorry" thro ugh my actions...

oh yeah the other day my dad and i w e n t to sams clubs... and the dad was playing with the cart.... like he was skating on the cart o r something.... sooooo kawaiiii!!! LOL! should of take a pic of it!! lol!

hey are some more pic from Sat ur d a y !!! they are kool looking!